Let It Go...

25 August 2010

al-right!! al-right!! weird things been happening lately... the GOOD one.. the BAD one.. the EMO one... the SAD one... the JEALOUS one... the FAKE one... whatever it is... its time to let it go... just... let it go... all the things left to do was to wish her her n her Happily Ever After... most important... its time to move on... GO for it... with full force... All The Best...

Outing with Friends...

23 August 2010

what a plan with my friends (Steve, PawXuan, Danny, Limmer and YJ) today...
1st stop... Amp Square from 11am - 2pm...
2nd stop... Comic Paradise...
3rd stop... some shoe shop... forgot the name...
4th stop... looking for a shop and walking round n round Pyramid...
5th stop... give up... end went to Tutti Frutti (FrozenYogurt)...
6th stop... searching/looking for some snack...
7th stop... XXL chicken at ShiLin...
8th stop... Crocs...
9th stop... Cinema TGV.. bought Repoman 6.30pm!!
10th stop... Extreme.. to waste some time... YJ went back...
11st stop... EhcoPark.. to waste some time...
12nd stop... F.O.S to waste some time... and i bought some pants...
13rd stop... TGV - Repoman!!! 6.30pm - 8.15pm...
14th stop... Dinner at RuJiaXiaoChu...

total spend: (AmpSquare : 17+15%) + (Tutti Frutti : 12) + (ShiLin : 6) + (F.O.S. : 63) + (Repoman : 13) + (Popcorn : 5) + (RuJiaXiaoChu : 10) = roughly OverSpend...

seems like need to start saving my money back dy... =.="

Picture(s) of the day:
*taken by Danny

YJ n Abu in AmpSquare
hving "fun" in Tutti Frutti

Start with Emo .. End with Happy

21 August 2010

yet another Saturday started with emo emo feeling... thanks to a friend of mine who she accompany me wasting time in the shopping mall... well... at least can say.. she accompany me wasting time... or... I accompany her to do shopping... manage to give her some advice about something... but don't think she will listen to what i say also... since.. girl just like to ask for something they already have the answer... and mostly.. they wont listen at all...

went back home continue my emo life until a phone rang somewhere around 9pm... cant tell you who is on the phone... but at least... the person give me an AWESOME GREAT NEWS... if what the person say is true... I will be seriously waiting for the day to come... most important of all... will push away all the appointment, date, shopping or what ever it is on that day... this news really make me freaking happy... hope to hear some update from the person again... ^^

La Gomera

20 August 2010

8pm... we (roughly 23 of us) have a dinner at LaGomera... somewhere at Damansara Perdana... its a Spanish buffet restaurant... food not that bad... it taste quite nice actually... and the price we have is under promotion because of the Fasting Month... ^^ lets the pictures do the work... pictures are taken by RIDHWAN...

Picture(s) of the Day:-

LaGomera

One of the Food Section
Another Food Section
LaGomera Environment
trying to mimic Ridhwan pose

trying to act cool

Bad, Weird & Lovely dream

20 August 2010

i had a mixture of Bad, Weird & Lovely dream before i wake up... i wont be saying who is inside the dream... lets just use codename : C.. L.. K.. and Me..

here how the dream begin...
while I was walking somewhere on the streets happily... than i saw a familiar car park outside a restaurant... i ran towards the car... and look into the restaurant... than i saw C and L was eating some nice dish inside... well... not just eating... but they also feeding each other to eat... like a very happy happy couple... well... actually they are couple... =.=" dunno for what reason at all... I just get very ANGRY and bit of JEALOUS... than i plan to sabotage their car..."

while i cutting their break line... K suddenly appear behind me and shout at me... with K expression... she feel pretty angry for what i planning to do... after scolding me "i wonder WHY i choose you?!"... she run away crying... without a second thought... i let go everything just wanted to chase her back... because i know deep inside... i like K more than anything else... i cant lost K...

while chasing K... i heard engine started from behind... probably is C and L going somewhere after their meal... but who cares... i just want back K... with the feeling of angry and sad in K... she run across a busy highway without looking at those busy car... than... a car lost control from far and almost bang on K... I quickly jump out and pull her back trying my best to save her... and YES!!! i manage to save her... what make me more happy is... after saving her... i quickly hug her tight...(YES!! it happen just like those cartoon)... the moment of happy is UNEXPLAINABLE... so good if i can really hug her tight in reality... ^^

after sweet talking with K for a while... heard another lost control car honing and its coming fast towards us... before i knew it... i found out the hon is just like my early Morning Alarm Clock... sadly the dream just end like this...

story with encoded...

18 August 2010

once a upon a time... there was a lady bird wondering around the forest ground... than it met a scorpion... without knowing how danger is a scorpion... the lady bird make friend with the scorpion... after knowing each other for quite a long period... the scorpion make a mistake... a mistake of bringing the lady bird to visit the scorpion lair...

once they went inside the lair... the lady bird and the scorpion was surrounded by a group of hungry scorpion... The lady bird blame the scorpion for trick it into a trap for other scorpion to eat as a meal... to proof the scorpion is innocent... the scorpion protect the lady bird on every single strike... to regain the lady bird trust... the scorpion decided to escort the lady bird all the way back to the lady bird nest... along the way... the scorpion has been fighting a lot just hoping that the Lady Bird wont get any injuries... worse of all... the lady bird notice how dangerous and how crucial is a scorpion... and the lady bird began to make a distance between itself and the scorpion...

until one day... the scorpion suspect the action on the lady bird... it began to wonder... is it worth its life by escorting the lady bird back to its nest after knowing what the lady bird think of it.. without letting it guard down... now that the scorpion started to hold its tail with the stinger high up... waiting for the moment to strike... a moment that when it notice the lady bird betray the scorpion... the scorpion truly wish this moment will never come... so that the scorpion wouldn't have to strike its friend, Lady Bird...

Good Bye.. Koi Fish..

17 August 2010

kinda have a rough morning... few unhappy things happen at the same time... don't feel like talking about it here... just wish i was at the seaside shouting very very loud to release... but at least i still manage to msg with Koi Fish...

lunch time... we (Danny, Raymond, Limmer & Me) were sitting in old town crap about some girls... cant really fully join into the conversation because of what i been through this morning... after that... back to work with all the unhappy things running in my mind... I try to seek for her to talk with... since she is the only person i trust... but there isn't any reply from her... seems like she too freaking busy with something else... so i guess i just have to keep it to myself...

roughly 10 minutes later... a link came from both Limmer & Raymond... both of them sending me the same link that make me curious what is in the link... once i open... it was a profile of a pretty girl... one of the girl we crap about during lunch time... a girl who we known as MOON... than Danny join in the conversation to talk about MOON... after MOON... another girl profile was send to me... she was another girl that we crap about during lunch time too... her name is, JUN... Jun seems kinda familiar to me... after browsing through her photo... only I remember that she is one of the girl that Daniel stalk on the blog... more girl profile was send but i only remember this 2 girls the most... during this "girl sharing session.. i kinda forget about my unhappy things.." Thanks Limmer for accidentally helping me to clear my thought...

Koi fish is swimming back from the pond to the lake... i guess is time for me to say "Good Bye, Take Care and See You Soon... wish u All The Best..." was suppose to call Koi Fish and say good bye at 10pm.. but i fall asleep around 9pm... the moment i wake up due to some weird uncomfortable feeling... it was already somewhere 12.40am... and worse of all... i'm too later for the phone call... kinda feel so hopeless...

Super Sunday!!

15 August 2010

early morning... waken up by crying phone call from the opposite side... talk for a while, calm the person down, job done than hang up and continue sleep... another phone call came in... asking me to go somewhere... so just kinda tag along with it... after the 'event'... we went for shopping... and than i was planning to dig out some useful information... but i just couldn't do it... because she treat me as a close friend so i just cant "use" her... end up... i choose not to "use" her and just let it be... sooner or later i will find out the information myself too...

went back home and do nothing... than MSN pop up a few msg from different person... i guess my whole afternoon just wasting my time on chit chatting... some chat about shopping... some chat about music... some chat about game... some chat about crap... some chat about love... OMG!! so many topic at the same time... end up my screen stack up with 6 chat box... to all the 6 person who reading this... now you know the reason why it took me such a long time to reply your MSN message... around 6pm... 1 more chat box pop up with a message "dont forget dinner at 8pm!!!"... my reaction become... "SHIT!!! i totally forgot about it!!"

8pm - 11.30pm... we (Me, SokYing, vJan, Daniel, YJ n KaiKeat) went to eat at ChongChing Steamboat... we sambil eat sambil talk sambil laugh... and than itu SokYing mau 3 8 my things... than out of no where... she teach me things that i should take notice of when tackling a girl... especially towards a girl with that type of personality... after that... the table become some sort of war zone... KoreanPop vs WesternR&B vs Neutral... what a weird but fun dinner we have here... haHaha...


Photo(s) of the Day:

- pretty lady name, SokYing... taken with my camera phone... i what some of you guys think... but i swear she look much more pretty herself compare to this photo...

i feel SCARE!!!

Love is BLIND... Jealousy make you even more BLIND...

sometimes I started to wonder what the real meaning of LOVE... things that she show me is not what I experience myself before... things that she show me... is even more complicated than others... worse of all... things that he show me... is totally not what I expected from... Things that he show me is worse than what I experience with my own eyes before... how is all this 3 relationship even possible... will the story end soon?! to be honest... if its possible... Miracle does appear in this world...

sometimes... i'm kinda scare while giving my own opinion or telling them what I experience before... is not only to one person... but to x amount of person... i scare when i tell the truth... bad things happen upon them because of what I say... i scare when i tell the truth... if the other find out... they might seek me out for revenge... i scare i give the wrong opinion... i scare she suffer the same pain again and giving up on every guy in the future... i scare he cant stand back up after what he been through... i scare she cry day and night and influence her work... i scare she stop believing in everyone except for herself... i scare she lost her laughter forever...

even though i scare... but i still have to do it... somehow they just trusted me for an unknown reason... they believe in me more than any of their friends... they even shared their pain and happiness with me... surprisingly even her!! a friend that i only knew for only few months... Thanks for believing in me... especially you... T.T

Awesome Saturday

14 August 2010

wake up early... open up computer... search through msn list... saw Halcrf is online... so i just click her name and kinda make fun and 'lan ci' to her that I'm sleeping at home while she have to work in office... but end up... she counter 'lan ci' me back that... at least she got something to do in office while i have to become some antic display around inside my room... haHaha... what an unexpected counter from her... nice one, Halcrf...

things that happen next is kinda too SECRET to post here... haHaha... cant tell you all, my readers...

10.30pm... i went for alcohol session at LIBRARY with some of the DG55 friends... there were Daniel, KaiKeat, vJan, cCheat, KokKang, YeeJenn and Me... Daniel and vJan order 7 big mug of Hoegaarden to each and everyone of us... according to them... it taste better and we tight budget... haHaha... after i try it... Hoegaarden feel like kinda sweet... an alcohol that taste sweet... can u imagine it?! we talk bullshit and life update till 12.30am... than we went for supper till around 3am...

what an awesome Saturday with 3 things happen in a day... CooLzzzz...

Halcrf

12 August 2010

Halcrf added me on facebook... it took me quite a while to remember who is she... Halcrf use to be my classmate many years back... if i remember correctly... the last time i talk with her is in year 1996... between 1997 till 2004... we were just 'Hi' and 'Bye'... and between 2005 till Aug 2010 we lost contact... and today we chat with each other again through MSN...

year 1993 - 1996... we went into the same primary school and year 1994 we were assign in the same class... since she is a quiet and polite girl... so she is consider the not so outstanding people in the class... as me a bad student... so i use to gang up with some other boys in the same class and bully the girls... especially Halcrf... i wonder if she remember or not... XD
year 1997... she been transfer to the Gold class... a class that form up with top students or we known it as... Straight A's students...
year 1999... we went into the same secondary school... but from 1999 - 2004... we never study in the same class even though our school shuffle the students every year... so every time we met somewhere... we were just 'Hi' and 'Bye'...
year 2005... i heard she went further study... but i'm not sure where... so since than... we never contact each other even though we have each other msn... i guess because the path we took... is totally different...
Aug 2010... she add me in fb... out of curiosity... i go msn search for her name... and start chatting with her... to find out the update of my friend... and wow... she change a lot... ^^

Volleyball

11 August 2010

today Volleyball remind me of 4 girls (Mickey, Mandy, Erlouisa, Gwenda) who use to teach me how to play... now that i already lost contact to all 3 of the girls except for Mandy... but at least playing volleyball remind me back of the happy moment... the moment that when we all fool around in the class, during marching training, during volleyball, during PE class...

and than by seing Esther, PawXuan and ShaeLyn play... they somehow remind me of playing against the 4 girls... just 3 of them is not skill enough compare to the 4 girls in my memory... haHaha... this volleyball session sure does remind me a lot of things...

and now... i wonder where are the 3 girls that i lost contact with... are they still doing fine... well... All The Best what ever you girls are doing... ^^

things happen

9 August 2010

the 2 gossip is no more the main topic that people talking about it... because people already confirm that they are just only... while the other 1 is still on the current topic... BUT!!! a new gossip has just arise... i'm guessing... soon... this gossip will become the hot topic... just like the gossip that is currently on topic... so... before that... i don't think i should talk about it now... lets enjoy the 2 show that running together... ^^

2nd things that happen is...
this is the first time seeing my friend most wonderful laugh ever... keep it up pal... ^^ kinda jealous of you... i cant even remember when was my last most happy moment... hmm... come to think of it... now i remember!!! things that happen on July 17, 2010 was my recent most happy moment... ^^

Avatar : The Last Airbender

7 August 2010

"Avatar : The Last Airbender"... hmm... not sure how to judge this movie... because... for person like me that never watch the cartoon series before... this movie is still okay... just sometimes it get me a bit confusing... why suddenly this suddenly that... i guess I'm lucky enough that I haven't watch the cartoon series... because all my friends that already watch the cartoon series... they are kind of suffering while watching this "Avatar : The Last Airbender" movie...

since everyone is saying the cartoon series is better... i guess i have to get the source and watch it once... to see why all my friends act and talk like that...

Wheel Changing

6 August 2010

After work... we (me, danny, steve, PawXuan) decide to went for skating with PawXuan car to skatepark... but before that... because the car she drive is her sister's car... and dunno for what reason... that car is kinda dirty than what i expected from a 'girl'... so... while she driving... we kinda tease her that her car is dirty and messy... she kinda get piss... haHa... and when she went to petrol station to pump petrol... i just simply help her clean up the front big windshield... and the pretty girl next car just keep watching me and laughing at me... i wonder why...

after the petrol... we continue our journey to skatepark... than some car hon at us... so out of confusion... PawXuan stop and check the car... and found out that the back wheel is flatten... so we have to change... but when steve and PawXuan open car bonnet... there isn't any equipment/tools there for us to change... well at least got the backup wheel... so we kinda call for help...

Raymond is here to save the day... Steve borrow his equipment to help PawXuan change wheel... oh... by the way... Steve is the 'mechanic' at this moment... the person in charge of changing the wheel... haHaha...

Picture(s) of the day:
- Steve the 'mechanic'

somewhere VS something

4 August 2010

recently i learn this 2 words from SnowyBird... SOMEWHERE & SOMETHING... i bet she herself didn't notice that she been using this 2 words for quite some times... for some people... this might mean nothing... but for me... this 2 words really helps a lot... especially to cover up... why would i say that?! okay... let have an example of:

(i) Somewhere:
- A: where are u going? B: am going to somewhere? A: where? B: somewhere..
rough explanation: when a person answer with the word 'somewhere'... meaning he/she is going to a place... but he/she does not intend to let you know where he/she is going... so that the person won't disturb him/her there...
(ii) Something:
- A: come.. lets go back together.. B: no.. i can't.. A: why not? B: i got something to do..
rough explanation: when a person answer with the word 'something'... meaning he/she is not free for the next moment... and he/she already nicely plan to do the thing which he/she does not intend to let you know what his/her next plan..

after all the rough explanation... isn't it useful?! for me... i seriously find it very useful to cover up SOMETHING... okay... now i starting to wonder... does SOMEONE and SOMEHOW works too?!

6 1/2 hour(s) PrepTask..

3 August 2010

early morning in the office... get a question 'is your shot urgent'.. and i reply 'No!'... than straight a away.. a shot been assign to me because its a very urgent shot... MUST complete within today... i take the shot... and get shock... GOSH!! it look like a very tough shot... well... who cares... as long as its a Prep Task... i will be freaking happy no matter how hard it is... for me... Prep Task is much much better than Roto Task... heard from others... they prefer the reverse way...

with that urgent Task on hand... is good to me too... is not just because it is a Prep Task... its also because i can focus on it without thinking 'that problem'... somewhere near 2.45pm... i done the task... wire the fileset to HYD for Arnab to check... Feedback receive around 3pm... make some changes according to the feedback and wire the fileset to Arnab again around 4.45pm... by 5pm... i get the green light for wire the fileset to LA... and than... will come and check is it approve or not by tomorrow morning...

untitled

2 August 2010

it was quite a weird lunch time for me.. All the unhappy and confuse moment was inside me for such a long time since that day... been suffering for keeping it only to myself until today... unknowingly i finally spit it almost all out... feel sorry for Danny who have to listen to almost all my unhappy and confuse moment of my life... it was like forcefully dragging him into my emotional life... but Thanks for listening...

After work... when Steve ask me to Skate and offer me an agreement... I agree to go for it... since i want to run away from the problem again... just to stop thinking about it for a moment again... and in the skate park... i try a lot of dangerous stuff which i normally don't have the courage to try before this without noticing about it... i guess emotional can change how a person react and a person behavior...

Chinese Version Blog

1 August 2010

Finally i decided to have a Chinese Version Blog after being complain by some friends who prefer reading chinese than english... the link is kinda lame but that the only name i can come up with... haHa..

the Chinese Version Blog is : http://jothan86v2.blogspot.com/

i did it again

31 July 2010

ever since that day... i been trying to run away from the problem... no matter what i try... i still don't have enough courage to face the problem... somehow i just scare of the outcome... what if... what if... and what if... than starting from July 28, 2010... i been 'busy' playing Starcraft II to help me stop thinking about something and someone... but till that day come... i guess i might just keep running away from the problem...

during lunch time... while eating with my friends... when they talk about the gossip of them and them... i can only answer... "Don't want to care anymore.. What ever he/she thinking.. Is his/her own business.. When he/she feel like wanna talk about it... I will be there only if he/she still thinking that I'm still his/her close friend..." I guess... not matter what the ending is... just wish him/her All The Best...

* hmm... been wonder is koi fish still happily swimming in the pond?! kinda miss koi fish... T.T

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30 July 2010

what an emotional day!! haiz~ better don't talk about it...
hmm... thinking to create a chinese version blog... still wonder should i or should i not...

after working hour... Me Steve Danny was testing out some dance move... while Raymond testing out his Yoyo Technique... it was fun to know exactly how to make that move with all the discussion from us... haHa.. although we might not know is it the exact move or not... well... if its not... there nothing wrong with it... because with the wrong style... some might known as 'New Move'...