Farewell Jateen... T.T

29 July 2010

today will be jateen last day working here in KL facility... so we have our "last meal" with jateen at Sri Penang.. lunch was kinda great... is not about the food... is the fun and joy that having with Jateen after being the mentor for such a long period... it would be 1 year for me.. while others will be roughly for few months... around 4.30pm... we are having some kind of group photos session... thanks to our photographer Aatur and Hafeez... ^^

eveything that we been through will be mark as memory now and forever... even though sometime he will be expecting impossible awesome work for us.. but that his way of training people... to push his 'student' to the max... not matter how good is your work... there will always have something to get improve with... this is what i roughly learn from Jateen... most important... he been trying to told us... to enjoy the work we do... once we enjoy it... we wont feel the stress within the task...

even though he is now back to India... but i will still always remember everything that he teach.. i gonna miss u so so so so much, Jateen... hope to see you soon someday... somewhere... somehow... once we meet again... lets have a DANCING REMATCH!!! ^^

Photo(s) of the day:-
- gonna miss you so much... Jateen...
- picture by Hafeez... thx!!

Fly High in the SKY

27 July 2010

Thanks Es... thanks for everything... but i still don't think i can solve things out face to face with her... Friend or Foes... just let it be... she can think what ever she wanted to... but i still like to believe in her... even if she does betray me... as a friend... i still wanna see her flying high in sky... and lets pray for her that she will not return to the cage once again...

are we?!

26 July 2010

a question being throw at me today... a question that stun me for quite a while... a question which i don't even know the answer myself... a question which i can only answer 'I Hope So'... the question is... "Are you both still friend?!" ... you know... when she ask this... she got a point there... and in that split second... i was thinking... "Are We?!"...

after what i have done... what i have written... what i have say... are we still friend?! i seriously don't know the answer... i keep thinking the same question over and over again... and the only answer i can come up with... its still only "I hope we are.." no matter how hard i try to dig out the answer... i still came up with the same answer over and over again...

mainly because... i still can't figure out the things that happen on July 22, 2010... its still an unsolved mystery for me... its impossible that... things that happen on that day is just for fun... as in now... i choose to believe 'Yes We Are!!'.. and i really hope i'm right about it...

DREAMS...

25 July 2010

weird?! why does it came back again?! i thought i manage to throw it away with her help... and i thought i can live without it... but why?! why now?! people use to say... Dream is like a curse... to cure the curse... the only way is to achieve it... but i don't want to achieve that dream... that dream make me feel soulless... worse of all... it leave me with a lot of sad memory... ever since i met her.. i have a better dream by than... and i want... NO!! i need... NO!! i MUST achieve this dream no matter how hard it takes... and i will not stop trying achieving this dream... not until i have a clear answer from her...

Best luck to myself...

Saturday

24 July 2010

it was kinda fun day without thinking too much unnecessary things about her... at least there is a lot of things to keep me busy from thinking about how is she doing... what is she doing... etc...

12.30pm... i reach Mid Valley... meet up with Steve... while waiting for Paw... we went to game shop to make an order for Starcraft II... after meet up we went lunch at La Manilla... a very cool shop... the cake there is very nice according to Paw n Steve... 1.30pm... Steve and Paw went for movie... while I went to Toy Fair... 3pm... Danny arrive... Steve n Paw finish movie... than we went in Toy Fair...

around 5pm... Me Steve Paw Danny went Shah Alam for skating... we reach there around 7pm... because of too many people... we just look around before the fun start... Mimi n nLim arrive... we went to nearby Burger King for 'dinner'... 8pm... the real fun begin... All 5 of us start skating while Danny do his yoyo training... surprisingly... we skate till 11++pm... than we went Taman Mega Ming Tian for supper...

Enjoy The Night, 白雪风玲..

23 July 2010

today Lead invite us dinner at Khana Curry House and Saturday ZOUK!!! i reject both planning because night i will be joining the Rhythm Skate Team... while ZOUK is a bit out of budget currently... but one thing weird is... why does she have to ask me whether to go or not only than she follow my answer... i kinda feel like she using me or maybe something else... but what is it?! well... not sure what is in her mind... but... I don't care and I don't want to know... as long as she don't hurt my felling... I'm fine with it...

later than... she roughly told me what his plan tonight... so... i guess the only thing that i can do is... to wish her luck and hope she can enjoy the night with him... OH!!! i would like to hint him something too... next time... don't tell her your plan... just give her some surprise... she will like it... trust me on this...

Have a Nice Night, 白雪风玲... Wish you All The Best...

WHY?!

22 July 2010

its 22th again... and things that happen on her surprisingly happen again... and this is already the third times... i try to warn her... but she never listen... this time... its becoming worse than what it use to be... guess the only person she will listen to is...

although bad things that happen on July 21, 2010... but i still feel worry about her... i still remember me and celine was talking about something this morning... and conclusion is... subconsciously i... guess its time to let it go... 3.16pm i receive the weirdest message from her... the content of the message is what make me kinda get total STUN... i wonder why does she have to type like that... is she trying to say something with some kind of code... well... no idea at all... there is no good reason i can think of for her to type like that..

in the night.. i accidentally tell her some of my most secrets and private stuff... a things that i been trying to hide from everyone... guess now.. besides me, myself.. she is the only person that know the most secrets things about me.. things which i'm not so proud of... hope she can keep it secret forever.. really really hope she does..

Good Night... and get well soon...

pain from the past

17 July 2010

around 7.30pm... L appear on my msn msg box... seems like she been suffering a lot from the past.. thing that happen make L don't have the courage to give it a second try... it somehow give me a feeling that.. L feel like staying inside the cage is better than flying outside in the sky especially with so many predators around... but what to do... i myself have a bad experience in the past too... it took me hell lot of time / good reason / new hope to recover...

a story of mine for u, L:
December 24, 2006... bad experience happen... no matter how hard i try to forget it... it still haunt me... especially since that day onwards... every Christmas Eve just make me remember things that happen on that day... at least it took me more than 1 year to heal the wound... June 2, 2008... i met R... October 5, 2008... i met A... mentally R n A manage to help me forget about things in the past... but when ever Christmas Eve is here... i'm still back to square one... January 28, 2010... i met N... the appearance of N clear away all my pain... as if the pain never ever exist.. thanks to you too, L... to encourage me to give it a try towards N... but still this cant be sure yet... the answer lies on Christmas Eve again... i just hope someday... i can have a nice Christmas Eve without the pain in me...

lets work hard together to forget about the past... i believe you can do it... its time for you to came out from the cage and start flying... don't you remember how good flying is?!

3rd time 1st time

17 July 2010

around 1pm... am suppose to go out with her... but things happen on her... after messaging for a while... told her to get some rest first... will wake her up around 3pm plus... 3.45pm... 'pick' her up and we went for movie... only than she told me whats happen on her... lucky i told her to get some rest... 4pm... she intro me an awesome snacks to eat... than 4.22pm we went in for movie, Despicable Me.. before the movie start... she told me the way to eat the snacks so that i wont unknowingly dirty myself inside pitch black...

good that she kinda enjoy this movie... see-ing / listening to her laugh is kinda cool... and those cute little minion kinda make a lot of fun... when ever the floating minion appear on the screen... she will laugh and told me '它好可怜喔'... when the movie end... the short clip of showing their 3D stereo skill time... we kinda get impress by those... and we roughly talk about it... haHa...

after the movie... we discuss a lot of stuff inside the story.. we exchange and share our opinion on something... than we went to Digi top up shop coz she wanted to top up her phone to make call back to her family... after that... i brought her to comic shop... we talk a lot about comic.. and i found out she likes NARUTO so so so much... after that she brought me to Bubble Tea shop... she told me to try it and its really really good... i was thinking like (Okay... i use to drink this twice a week back in my hometown)... so instead i intro her some of my favorite flavor... well she told me she will try it next time since she already order GreenTea while i order Peppermint... after having some fun here and there... she decided to went back home... so i guess i just have to tag along to walk her back...

on the way back... we talk a lot of stuff... you couldn't imagine that the conversation we talk about... coz i was quite shock when she talk about it too... haHaha... guess that the real her which she always hide it from everyone...

my new babe

17 July 2010

10am... i decide to get a new phone... i cant stand it anymore... the reason i get this new phone is not just for fun... is because there is a lot reason behind it... the picture is not my phone... i just simply grab it from Google... mine is black in colour...

Reason(s):
(1) my Nokia 5300 has abandon me... some of the button is spoil...
(2) been fixing once every 2-3 months... wasted my money...
(3) i cant type a proper message without those button...
(4) even the 'CALL' button is spoil...
(5) i cant type in chinese...
(6) without chinese... its hard for me to communicate with her...
(7) everyone told me that my Nokia 5300 has reach its time..

Bye bye... my lovely Nokia 5300... i'll be missing you...

Happy Hour

16 July 2010

tonight is a party to farewell Jateen... so R&H have a awesome party in D'Melor club house... around 7pm... the party started... at the first half... everyone was eating and enjoying the foods/snacks that was prepared... while the second half is the fun part... DANCE!!!

At first no people dare to dance until... Albert point to ME... I point to Venu... and than Venu become the first person to show off... after him... Albert Me Jateen just join in for the dance... and than follow up by the rest of the people... today~ only i get to know that... practicing alone at home and dancing in the public is so freaking different... i feel shy most of the time... because all my move is not perfect... but still a lot people wonder how i learn all those move...

guess... i have to say it clearly here... HipHop move is learn from Philbert P. Petrus... MoonWalk is mimic from Michael Jackson... Club move is learn from everywhere... Weird but Funny move is mimic from Vjan & Daniel... i guess thats roughly how i learn all kind of weird move... Besides... i get to learn a lot of awesome "MOVE" today too... especially a move that i cant mimic... but i modified it into something else... from what Paw say... its kinda cool because my head is like stick there never move... but my body and leg is moving all around... as if... some giant holding my head and i try to... u know?! By the way... ShaeLyn dance was so freaking SEXY... since she say she only been to club twice... i wonder where the hack she learn all those "sexy move"?!

around 11pm... everyone head back home... except Me Steve Paw Danny stay back to continue 2nd round inside one of the indian house... most of us gather there to have fun together till roughly around 2am... than Me Steve Paw Danny decided to went back home...

Picture of the Days:
- having some kind of singing session during the 2nd round...






- people during the 2nd round...







- Khairul Album

good bye, my friend...

15 July 2010

first of all... I should apologize to you... i guess... starting from 2moro... i try not to disturb about the things that happen between both of u anymore... do how ever you want lar... don't wanna care anymore... To be honest... almost everyone already know about it... is not like someone gossip bout it... is just that both person action are too damn obvious dy... actually the more you try to hide it... the more people will notice about it... doesn't care who... as long as they are human... they will notice...

lets hope you will forget about every sad things in the past and start a new life... and don't be like me... trap inside the past... seeking for a spark of light in the darkness... well... i guess... its time for me to go out of your life for a short while... I hereby wish you... All The Best... and... Enjoy your brand new life...

YES!! i did it...

14 July 2010

around 5pm... was talking about a movie... Despicable Me... while I was thinking "to ask or not to ask"... i manage to have some guys to guys talk with Steve...

roughly 9.20pm... i still don't have the guts to make the call... so i send a message to her... and than... while i was sending another message to ShaeLyn... i guess i click too fast till it send to her instead of ShaeLyn... with that kind of message... she will get misunderstand... so i just have to call her to do some explanation... but i guess that just an excuse for myself to make a call to ask her out...

9.25pm... i make the CALL... conversation on the phone is kinda privacy (so sorry that i cant write it here)... after the apologize... i give out everything i have just to ask her out... and surprisingly in the end... she answer : "OKAY... sure"... without asking who is coming too... well... all the while i been worry about what if she ask "who is coming"... seems like I'm kinda worry too much on the first place...

hmm... what ever it is... it doesn't matter anymore... since she already say OKAY... so i will be looking forward on the coming weekends... hope nothing wrong happen in between this few days... ALL the Best, Jothan d' Rotten...

PREDATORS

14 July 2010

6.50pm... Me, Steve, Danny, EeJien & YonHui went to watch PREDATORS in sunway...

story wise... not so good as what i imagine... I would say this movie is mostly for fans... for some girls... maybe the main character is handsome enough for them to watch this movie... FX wise... so so only... even the flame FX doesn't really impress me too... as for the Samurai scene... nothing much special... i was expected more... but it seems like is just normal fight...

words to you, 'super close friend'..

13 July 2010

to my 'super close friend' :
(1) don't try to change yourself because of him saying that...
(2) please... take care of your own health if you do really wanted to change just because of that... because as far as i seen... your body / health is kinda weak...
(3) honestly in my opinion you're way better than who you think you are... even better than my dream girl... (just don't ask me why i like her... because i cant find that answer myself...)
(4) forgive me that i cant sweet talk / comfort you out of that sad feeling when you needed me the most... so sorry to you... SORRY~
(5) SMILE~

dont be so sad...

13 July 2010

to person-A:
SHIT!!! you have over did it THIS TIME!!! cant you just self control a bit?! you been hurting my friends again and again... and worse of all... this time you hurting my super close friend so so so much... you know how sensitive is that word for a girl?! even though is just for fun and for joke... but still... people wont use that word to joke around... especially in front of the public...

although i just get to know her since May 11, 2010... and... we were so hardly click together at the beginning but now... she became my super close friend... I trusted her till i told her some of my secrets... and today.. she is so badly hurt that i can feel the tears inside her heart... and this is the 2nd time I see my super close friend feel so sad!! IF ONLY i know to sweet talk and try to comfort her out of that sadness... feel so useless when the time she needed me... T.T

Main Reason:
(1) because of him-A using that sensitive word to describe her and to joke around with it in front of the public... i know he-A been like this since dunno when... but this time... definitely he-A has over did it...
(2) how the hell he-B didn't say something to support / protect / stand up for her... aren't he-B is the one who always try to court her all this time?! worse of all... he-B didn't even try to talk her out of that sadness at the first place... than... through the phone call... cant he-B even feel that how she wanted /wish him to comfort her?! and he-B still act like he-B dunno anything?! what kind of future-"bf" is he-B?!

well... what ever it is... I really hope she can overcome her sadness and enjoy her happy life again... wish to see her sweet laugh again on the next day...

things just happen...

12 July 2010...

somewhere around 2.30pm... when i was syok syok enjoying my production work... than i receive a message from my close friend... after the 2nd / 3rd message... i was totally like... *WTF!!* ... *you're kidding me?!* ... *is that for real?!* ... *how did that happen?!* ... *did anything happen to you?!* ... *did you get hurt?!* ... *are you fine?!* ... *please don't cry!!* ... everything just flash into my head... than we keep on messaging to slightly talk about detail... after messaging for a while... than i agree to spend this coming weekend to accompany this close friend to settle some stuff...

Sing K

11 July 2010

Danny invited for K... and somehow he manage to ask her and ShaeLyn out... so i agree to tag along also... 4pm... session started!!! haHaha... well... supposedly we were only K till 7pm... but because of some problem happen to the service... they extended our time till 9pm...

during those 5 hour... we been having a great time... well at least I am... especially having fun together with her... while ShaeLyn & Danny was busy singing... at least we were discussing what song to choose... to choose not for me n her... but for ShaeLyn and Danny... coz they both macam what song pun can sing... Pro betul... besides... i somehow roughly know what kind of song she like too... heHe... not gonna tell you... find it out yourself... ^^ well... although i admit her singing voice a bit 'cacat' but somehow i like it... coz its kinda funny, cute and special... especially when she sing solo... thats the golden moments...

wish i can come out and have fun together with her again... ^^

will TRY AGAIN!!!

9 July 2010

after struggle for such a long time... FINALLY i got the courage to date her out... well... although she have rejected it because of some specific reason (can't mention it here due to some privacy)... but still I'm happy with it because she reply me with words that included... "改次"... i guess i just have to TRY AGAIN... at least I will be aiming for the movie that she desperately wanted to watch...

guys talk...

8 July 2010

okay... i promise her not to mention the most funny action that she did today in this blog... so nothing i can do about it... haHaha... or else u will found her throwing my dead body which being chop to pieces by pieces into the crocodile river...

10pm... the available DG55 gather up and have a small chat... actually just meeting up with Bunny coz she will be leaving Malaysia soon... around 11pm... the girls have left... so the boys start their boy talk... so kinda everyone is being question one by one... when its my turn... suddenly a friend say : "the night that girl that i fetch quite pretty wer~'".. because of that sentences... i have to do some explanation and start telling them real story... and worse of all... they even go facebook to have a look how pretty she actually is... Surprisingly... almost all of them answer... 'wer~ quite pretty wah~'... some even ask 'why didnt tackle her?' at that moment i was total speechless... because i not sure how to explain to them that... is the other person that attracted me not her... only than they start asking question about my dream girl~
what a night~

can i do it?!

7 July 2010 - 8 July 2010

for no reason at all... i suddenly thought of her... cant stop thinking of her again... her smile... her beauty... her speech... her action... her favorite... her sleepy face...

than suddenly was thinking about...

- how should i date her out?!
- when is the best day to date her out?! Saturday?! Sunday?!
- will she say 'YES' if i date her out for that movie?!
- what if she say 'NO'?!
- should i phone her or msg her?!
- should i invite others too? or just her best friend?! or just both of us?!
- etc...

just by thinking of all those headache question... suddenly few people line came across me...
- Steve : DO IT FIRST... WORRY LATER...
- cCheat : JUST DO IT and NO REGRETS...
- Daniel : JUST DO IT as if its THE LAST DAY ON EARTH...
- KuanWin : FOLLOW YOUR HEART...
- Albert : DON'T THINK... JUST DO IT...
- ShaeLyn : BE BRAVE and GO FOR IT...

^.^

7 July 2010

oh no~ around 3.50pm... I become Idle again... sometimes Idle also meaning 'boring session'... so... was planning to do some small disturb to her and her... but when i turn my chair... i saw her doing work seriously... and her playing bejewel... well... as i mention... i don't wish to experience twice of what will happen to me when she really stress out doing work... so i 'disturb' the one that playing bejewel... haHaha...

End of the day... she offering me a ride back... but i heard from 'someone' that she is rushing to somewhere... so i turn down her offer... coz if i waste her time sending me back... i will feel kinda guilty... but still... THANKS for offering me a ride back... ^^ next time... when you're not rushing i probably will accept your offer... haHa...

now only i notice that...

5 July 2010

people always say... the more you look at the person... the more you can find his/her beauty inside out... the theory is proven again... it all happen on our way back home... when she was driving... i was on the passenger seat looking at her (consider one of my bad habit)... sometimes looking at the road of coz just in case she... u know... haHaha...

you know...
she has a pair of big EYES ... somehow i call it the cute eyes... just by looking at it... the eyes remind me of the cat in the movie SHREK... i wonder what happen if she act like the cat... will i melt?! haHa... well... guess I will find out someday...

her NOSE.. not too normal not too small... just perfect for her feature... but than she always like to... hmm... not sure how should i describe it... currently the only word i can think of is... 'shrink it'... its kinda funny when she does that... i wonder did she know of this or not... nah~ i guess not.. coz she use to ask me what am i laughing at...

MOUTH... kinda different compare to others... not sure how to describe it here... but one thing for sure... she doesn't drink much water... coz its somehow kinda look pale...

HAIR... slightly curvy... but its kinda attractive especially with all her perfect feature... as my personal Point Of View.. maybe when the hair grow longer it might be even more powerful than what it was now... wonder how will she look like when her hair become long...

EXPRESSION... she can make a lot of expression just by driving... among all... her blur blur expression is the unforgettable... why?! when you look at it... you will know why... trust me...

conclusion... i have to admit... although she is not that xxx(sorry to say that)... but she is still the funniest girl that i have ever made... feel kinda happy to have a friend like her... ^^ but sometimes is best NOT TO disturb her when she was STRESS... i experience it once... and i don't wish to experience it twice...


note: hey girl.. no heart feeling okay?! if you don't like it... i can delete this post under your request... ^^

Sunday...

4 July 2010

around 12.30pm... waken up by a phone call... when i look at it... saw ShaeLyn weird post picture on it... I terus wake up by shock... not that the picture is ugly... is just that there is a pretty lady somewhere waiting for me to answer the call... come on... think normally... of coz you will pick up the phone instead of off it and continue the sleep right?!

well... through the conversation... she just asking me out for badminton with Nazri and Prasad them later 4pm... leaving Sunway around 3.30pm... I agree to go with her... than I just couldn't sleep again... so just back to my normal life...

3.25pm... i reach ShaeLyn house... hop into her car and start the journey around 3.34pm... along the way... we crap around again... haHaha... 4 - 7.30pm... is the badminton session... nothing much to report except... nvr mind... shhh... DONT ASK!!

7.30pm... games end... everyony feel tired and just head back home... haHaha... well something did happen in between the journey... but never mind... only I know is enough already.. haHaha...

Stupid Jothan

3 July 2010

3.20pm... we went and watch Karate Kid... inside the cinema... it seems like ShaeLyn create a chance for me to sit next to her... while ShaeLyn sit on the other side of her... if this is what ShaeLyn trying to do... i guess i own her a THANKS... just before the movie started... we manage to watch some trailer... than somehow when Sorceror's Apprentice trailer came out... she was so freaking happy that she say she must watch this... i guess if possible... its time for me to take action and date her out watching that movie with her...

As for this movie... i still cant figure out why they call it Karate Kid since the kid is learning Chinese Martial Arts... As for the story... nothing much that i can talk about... since everything about the story line is expected... Besides... i guess Jaden Smith possess his father (Will Smith) acting skill... his facing expression is so freaking cool and nice... believe he will become a wonderful actor just like his father in the near future...

After the movie... we decided to left... and that is the moment that i take the wrong move... instead of simply find an excuse to shop with her and get to spend time with her... i go skating with Steve and Abu... AH!!! i was so freaking STUPID... until 3 minute after she left... only i realize it because of Kuan Win 'scold' me for it... T.T

Lastly.. thanks to ShaeLyn that i finally found the answer which i'm been seeking for... well... is not like she talk to me or what... its just that her action make me realize it...

to ShaeLyn : Thanks ShaeLyn... even though you feel blur and confuse when u read this... but yeah... Thanks...

The Mist

2 July 2010

tonight R&H having a farewell for Harry Lum (compositing sup)... he is going back to LA... so some of the big guy in R&H decide to visit TheMist tonight...

9.45pm... i walk to the girls house n hope into ShaeLyn car and saw NaiYin next to her... and than we went to pick up Frans somewhere in Puchong... after that... we head straight to The Mist... problem is... no one know where is that... as for me... i only know roughly the place... but not confirm... so ShaeLyn decided to went back home and get GPRS... since we cant find the place in the GPRS... and i dunno how to use that GPRS... so i just use it as a map and mark the location which i roughly know and follow the map...

once we get there... its FUN time... not quite sure it is ShaeLyn & NaiYin shy or what... but they sure does seems like is their first visit to club... haHaha... Me and Jason trying to pull them to dance floor... but it took us quite a long time to persuade them... as for me and Jason... guess we are the only person without alcohol that night (at least i still got few drops)... than the rest of the night we were just having Coke... haHaha... guess its my first time clubbing with COKE...

2.15am... we head back home... on the way back... ShaeLyn say that a guy try and get to know NaiYin... that the only part i know... but still... i felt something after i heard that... seems like i not daring enough to take a move yet...

What have I done?!

1 July 2010

are you mad at me after what i have asking around too much yesterday... you ware kinda total ignore me almost the whole day... as if i was kinda invisible for you today?! seriously I not sure what have I done to make you treat me like that... I try to communicate with you... it was as if my words or texts cant reach to you at all... please don't treat me like that... I kinda feel bad and suffering in this situation... well... at least tell please me what have I done to make you get so mad at me?! please... and seriously Sorry if what I've done really hurt you so much...

things have been flying around...

30 June 2010

things that happen today is TOP SECRET... because it involve my NEW FRIEND, Kalyana...



notes:
who ever desperate... you're welcome to hack into my computer and get into this path..
D:\Private\30June2010.txt