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something seriously bothering me today... feel like wanna find someone to talk to... but who is the right person to talk with... everyone is busying with their own personal stuff... i try to search for my darling by phone... but something weird is going on her... she doesn't seems like wanna talk... so i hung up and try getting into bed and forget everything... is easy to say than to actually do... because i cant sleep with everything stuck inside my head... 

i can't sleep... nor do i can speak to someone... and suddenly... tears start flowing out... and for the first time in the second half of the year... i miss my Mom so badly... if only she was here... than maybe i can manja her for a while... too bad she wasn't... i grab and hug my 3ft tall Teddy Bear... and started acting like some crazy people talking to a non living thing... emotion get slightly better after talking to my Teddy Bear...

T.T