Farewell Jateen... T.T

29 July 2010

today will be jateen last day working here in KL facility... so we have our "last meal" with jateen at Sri Penang.. lunch was kinda great... is not about the food... is the fun and joy that having with Jateen after being the mentor for such a long period... it would be 1 year for me.. while others will be roughly for few months... around 4.30pm... we are having some kind of group photos session... thanks to our photographer Aatur and Hafeez... ^^

eveything that we been through will be mark as memory now and forever... even though sometime he will be expecting impossible awesome work for us.. but that his way of training people... to push his 'student' to the max... not matter how good is your work... there will always have something to get improve with... this is what i roughly learn from Jateen... most important... he been trying to told us... to enjoy the work we do... once we enjoy it... we wont feel the stress within the task...

even though he is now back to India... but i will still always remember everything that he teach.. i gonna miss u so so so so much, Jateen... hope to see you soon someday... somewhere... somehow... once we meet again... lets have a DANCING REMATCH!!! ^^

Photo(s) of the day:-
- gonna miss you so much... Jateen...
- picture by Hafeez... thx!!

Fly High in the SKY

27 July 2010

Thanks Es... thanks for everything... but i still don't think i can solve things out face to face with her... Friend or Foes... just let it be... she can think what ever she wanted to... but i still like to believe in her... even if she does betray me... as a friend... i still wanna see her flying high in sky... and lets pray for her that she will not return to the cage once again...

are we?!

26 July 2010

a question being throw at me today... a question that stun me for quite a while... a question which i don't even know the answer myself... a question which i can only answer 'I Hope So'... the question is... "Are you both still friend?!" ... you know... when she ask this... she got a point there... and in that split second... i was thinking... "Are We?!"...

after what i have done... what i have written... what i have say... are we still friend?! i seriously don't know the answer... i keep thinking the same question over and over again... and the only answer i can come up with... its still only "I hope we are.." no matter how hard i try to dig out the answer... i still came up with the same answer over and over again...

mainly because... i still can't figure out the things that happen on July 22, 2010... its still an unsolved mystery for me... its impossible that... things that happen on that day is just for fun... as in now... i choose to believe 'Yes We Are!!'.. and i really hope i'm right about it...

DREAMS...

25 July 2010

weird?! why does it came back again?! i thought i manage to throw it away with her help... and i thought i can live without it... but why?! why now?! people use to say... Dream is like a curse... to cure the curse... the only way is to achieve it... but i don't want to achieve that dream... that dream make me feel soulless... worse of all... it leave me with a lot of sad memory... ever since i met her.. i have a better dream by than... and i want... NO!! i need... NO!! i MUST achieve this dream no matter how hard it takes... and i will not stop trying achieving this dream... not until i have a clear answer from her...

Best luck to myself...

Saturday

24 July 2010

it was kinda fun day without thinking too much unnecessary things about her... at least there is a lot of things to keep me busy from thinking about how is she doing... what is she doing... etc...

12.30pm... i reach Mid Valley... meet up with Steve... while waiting for Paw... we went to game shop to make an order for Starcraft II... after meet up we went lunch at La Manilla... a very cool shop... the cake there is very nice according to Paw n Steve... 1.30pm... Steve and Paw went for movie... while I went to Toy Fair... 3pm... Danny arrive... Steve n Paw finish movie... than we went in Toy Fair...

around 5pm... Me Steve Paw Danny went Shah Alam for skating... we reach there around 7pm... because of too many people... we just look around before the fun start... Mimi n nLim arrive... we went to nearby Burger King for 'dinner'... 8pm... the real fun begin... All 5 of us start skating while Danny do his yoyo training... surprisingly... we skate till 11++pm... than we went Taman Mega Ming Tian for supper...

Enjoy The Night, 白雪风玲..

23 July 2010

today Lead invite us dinner at Khana Curry House and Saturday ZOUK!!! i reject both planning because night i will be joining the Rhythm Skate Team... while ZOUK is a bit out of budget currently... but one thing weird is... why does she have to ask me whether to go or not only than she follow my answer... i kinda feel like she using me or maybe something else... but what is it?! well... not sure what is in her mind... but... I don't care and I don't want to know... as long as she don't hurt my felling... I'm fine with it...

later than... she roughly told me what his plan tonight... so... i guess the only thing that i can do is... to wish her luck and hope she can enjoy the night with him... OH!!! i would like to hint him something too... next time... don't tell her your plan... just give her some surprise... she will like it... trust me on this...

Have a Nice Night, 白雪风玲... Wish you All The Best...

WHY?!

22 July 2010

its 22th again... and things that happen on her surprisingly happen again... and this is already the third times... i try to warn her... but she never listen... this time... its becoming worse than what it use to be... guess the only person she will listen to is...

although bad things that happen on July 21, 2010... but i still feel worry about her... i still remember me and celine was talking about something this morning... and conclusion is... subconsciously i... guess its time to let it go... 3.16pm i receive the weirdest message from her... the content of the message is what make me kinda get total STUN... i wonder why does she have to type like that... is she trying to say something with some kind of code... well... no idea at all... there is no good reason i can think of for her to type like that..

in the night.. i accidentally tell her some of my most secrets and private stuff... a things that i been trying to hide from everyone... guess now.. besides me, myself.. she is the only person that know the most secrets things about me.. things which i'm not so proud of... hope she can keep it secret forever.. really really hope she does..

Good Night... and get well soon...